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Monday, 17 April 2006

Currently Watching
Legally Blonde
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so last night i couldnt stand feeling like i have been lately so we went up to the ER to find out what was wrong with me and it turns out that i have neumonia. it sucks hard core. hopfully ill be back at school on wed. tho! im not looking forward to make up work at all!!!!!!

Tuesday, 11 April 2006

Currently Reading
The Wedding
By Nicholas Sparks
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well scratch the whole not getting the car thing!

my mom talked to my cousin and she said that it was cool if i get it around late Dec. or early Jan. so that's pretty awesome!

im sick right now which pretty much sucks!

theres not really nething to say so i guess just comment me

Monday, 27 March 2006

Currently Listening
A Rush of Blood to the Head
By Coldplay
Stupid Girl
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GOOD NEWS
soo..... im playing soccer 4 west now.....

excited...? HECK YES I AM!

BAD NEWS

i dont get my dream car nemore....

Sunday, 26 March 2006

Currently Listening
The Silence in Black and White
By Hawthorne Heights
Silver Bullet
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well i got that job at Lyon's Frozen Custard.....woo hoo-- you would think that i would be excited, except for the part where the lady mentioned that i'll only get paid $5.25!----uhhh...how bout no scott. that sucks but i mean if i dont get a call back from newhere else, then ill just take the job and work as much as i can!

i just got back from filling out another application at a different frozen custard place ((who pays $8 during the day, and $6.50 @ night)) so hopefully they call me.

i went to church this morning with sam. it felt kinda wierd to be back there, but i really did miss some people ya know? i just wish that i had a way there on sundays so i could go...i'll be 16 soon tho so that should solve my problem.

well i think im gunna get some food...so leave me some comments!

xoxo kwil

Tuesday, 21 March 2006

ive been thinking a lot lately about things.... not good things either. like why things are the way they are.

i dont understand why bad things happen to good people- ya know? i mean a lot of crappy things have happened to me in my life that i cant explain and sometimes it just gets to me.

harley has been on my mind a lot too. he didnt deserve that- he was so young and apparently just got his stuff going good. thats not fair. i hadnt even hung out with him in forever but finding out the way i did about his death was horrible and i wouldnt wish that on anyone.

i have just always heard..."No Regrets" and the thing is; i have SO many. i regret never answering harleys phone calls because now-ill never get a phone call from him again. ill never see him again and thats something so hard to come to grips with. it just hit me that any of my friends could wind up the way he did, and i dont think i could handle that.

im pretty straight forward with other people and myself and when i know that i am doing something wrong and dont stop or try n fix it...that just gets on my nerves. i dont know why i dont stop when i know its wrong...i guess i just want to. ITS SO CONFUSING.

and i feel like im some terrible person, and i think that i just forget about it in the moment b/c im excited and then it just drowns the pain out. im numb to it all and forget all the stuff that im faced with. but then at the same time..thats no excuse. its wrong and i know that.

well i have a lot more to say but i need to shower for school tomorrow...so comment with advice if you've got it!

love kelli